Posted in Allison, Blog, Dustin, Lessons from God, Trauma

Yelling

I saw this on Twitter today & I had to save this to an image. I needed to see this. 84 likes so far. I don’t like yelling & talking loud. This is what my anger from my grief has done to me. I’m praying for healing. I do also plan on going back to my first GriefShare group I attended in February 2015. I’m also talking to a few close friends that are helping me.

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I’m back in Georgia & this is where God wants me.

My TikTok video explaining why I moved back to Georgia. Where I first lived in Georgia at 25 years old in 1986.

TikTok video link to my page.

On April 24, 2022 I moved back to Georgia. I transferred to the Food Lion in Springfield, GA. The same county I lived in when I first moved to Georgia when I was 25 In 1986. Butch & I started our family there and that is where Dustin is buried. I will be buried by Dustin.

I sense that God wanted to bring me back to where all my grief & anger started after Dustin’s death. I have so much to deal with and face. I will be going back to my first church there near where I use to live in Griffin Lakes, Guyton, Ga.

I’ve had a lot of adjusting to do with bringing Willa, my youngest daughter Taylor’s dog, into my life. I’ve never been a dog mom. I am trying my best through mistakes & learning from them. The gas prices are high & it seems I only go to work and come home. My longtime friends Dacia & Damien has provided an RV Camper for me to live in.

My second daughter Paige & her family is only 30 minutes from me and now I get to spend more time with my two grandchildren Sawyer (6) and Fynleigh (3, born on my birthday).

Since I’ve been here Butch, and our marriage has been on my mind a lot. I’m remembering what caused the divorce and how there were some things I wish could of been different. I also remember how he hindered my grief and kept me stuck while I was crying out for help, not only with my husband but also with my pastor & church family. I feel like no one listened. No one really cared about me, they tolerated me because they liked Butch. When you’re alone in your grief & pain and everyone avoids you your mind thinks the most negative things. That’s the stuff that’s in my mind.

Work is going the best it can while we are in a food crisis. Everyone is on edge & worried. I’m trying to keep them informed if they would listen. No one wants to listen when the world is falling apart in front of them. It’s so sad.

Love to my readers.

Leah; June 5, 2022

Posted in Lessons from God

A Person with Pride is:

  • You are not teachable.
  • Seeing yourself as too good to do certain tasks.
  • You don’t ask for help.
  • Talking about yourself a lot.
  • You won’t accept constructive criticism & advice.
  • You always need attention & affirmation.
  • You pay too much attention to appearances.
  • You do not submit to authority.
  • You justify your sin (we all sin) instead of admitting it.

Posted in Lessons from God

A Humble Person is:

*Teachable

*Is at peace with themselves & others.

*Is grateful

*Is slow to offend

*Asks for help

*Treats everybody with respect

*Is patient & doesn’t get easily frustrated with the imperfections of others.

*Recognizes their own limitations

*Celebrates the accomplishments of others

*Open to a deep relationship with God

From TikTok

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Living In My Car

My first TikTok
Taking a walk instead of wearing a mask in the gym!
I have anger & still stuck in the trauma when I lost my son in 1989. The anger is from PTSD and friends & family have been triggering my anger. I feel like a monster & I need to stay away from them. I have always needed support & compassion. No one listens.
I need joy & peace! Living in my car alone has me totally dependent on God. I want my personality remade the way God wants me. I want to be delivered & healed from all this anger accumulated for almost 32 years.

I moved back home from GA in 2015. I was living with my mom. After losing my daughter on 3-20-17 she wanted me out. She wanted me to get my place. My mind has been so scattered now that I realize I’ve buried two children. I work part-time and sometimes I just feel so defeated & worthless. The other day my daughter Paige (still living in GA) told me no one can help me but myself. My car is all I own. I saw videos on TikTok of people living in their cars. I knew then I could do this. Me & God! I don’t know where He will take me but I know He will remake me! I know He has a good future for me. I hope right now while on this journey I can help others.