I’ve been saving wine bottles for 3 years. For the past 2 years I’ve drank a lot of this wine while grieving Allison’s death. Just to feel giddy in the middle of pain.
This Christmas I decided to get my bottles out. My purpose was to make my oldest daughter, Ila, a vintage white flower vase. I spied on her Pinterest to see what she likes. I was determined to make her a beautiful vase like I saw in the picture.
Through the process & getting out supplies I had from prior projects, buying more, I started decorating all the bottles I could. I was having so much fun!
This is what happened when I got into decorating:
1. Barely on Facebook (no time) or Twitter.
2. No focus on politics, but reading a good Christian book on the apocalypse. Reading a hard copy book and not online.
3. As I have been focused on the bottle decorating I do think of how I miss Allison & Dustin, but I’m not depressed. I’ve also missed Butch (their father and my ex husband) as this is our first Christmas without him. I keep thinking about when we were married & regretting we didn’t work it out. Although I’ve been missing them this Christmas I get joy when I finish a bottle.
I feel joy & excitement because each bottle I make I know is a gift that will bless a loved one I give to.
Crafts/painting/coloring is a tool from cognitive behavioral therapy that relieve’s stress, grief & anger.
I feel good & I wanted to share this as part of my journey as a #BereavedMother.