• Allison is forever 25 and it hurts!
    Today would have been Allison’s 31st birthday! I miss her so much! She was so beautiful.  A natural country girl.  Sometimes she was “girly girly” but mostly a natural beauty without even trying.  She always wanted to spend time with me. Out of all my daughters she begged for me the most. What happened between […]
  • Writing from my journals.
    My dream is to write a book about my journal writings beginning 6 months after losing my son Dustin & now to present since losing my daughter Allison in 2017. All the losses in my life surrounding their deaths. The divorces, the abuse, my children having issues with me as a bereaved momma that made […]
  • Yelling
    I saw this on Twitter today & I had to save this to an image. I needed to see this. 84 likes so far. I don’t like yelling & talking loud. This is what my anger from my grief has done to me. I’m praying for healing. I do also plan on going back to […]
  • I’m back in Georgia & this is where God wants me.
    TikTok video link to my page. On April 24, 2022 I moved back to Georgia. I transferred to the Food Lion in Springfield, GA. The same county I lived in when I first moved to Georgia when I was 25 In 1986. Butch & I started our family there and that is where Dustin is […]
  • “Why are you single?”
    My explanation to a TikTok followers question…. Oh wow how do I explain being single. I’ve been divorced 3 times. My first husband we were 18, married at 19 & had our daughter turning 20. He was only 6 months older (I do prefer my age group). When our daughter was 6 months old he […]
  • A New Journey
    Leaving the #outerbanks and headed to my home/roots in the Blue Ridge Mountains. A new journey 🦋🌻
  • Being tormented in The Valley of the Shadow of Death
    I recently heard this song for the first time when I was working graveyard at 3am, alone in the aisle stocking the baby food and tears fell down my face. This is just like Allie Leigh Gledhill. I know at 25 she thought she had time to get herself together. I prayed with my daughter […]
  • Trying to be creative
    I got out my small box of crafts that I had in my car with me when I came to the Food Lion summer program in Avon, NC on the Outer Banks. I’m enjoying this opportunity & going to use it to help me chase my dreams 🦋 https://vm.tiktok.com/ZMdtpmUBg/
  • When We Fall Apart
    youtube.com/watch I Will write soon about how this video/song makes me feel. “The only way to heal a broken heart is when we fall apart” I’ve been a mess for a long time after losing Dustin in 1989. Then 28 years later, after having the last 4 years with Allison before her life ended in […]
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  • A Person with Pride is:
    You are not teachable. Seeing yourself as too good to do certain tasks. You don’t ask for help. Talking about yourself a lot. You won’t accept constructive criticism & advice. You always need attention & affirmation. You pay too much attention to appearances. You do not submit to authority. You justify your sin (we all […]
  • A Humble Person is:
    *Teachable *Is at peace with themselves & others. *Is grateful *Is slow to offend *Asks for help *Treats everybody with respect *Is patient & doesn’t get easily frustrated with the imperfections of others. *Recognizes their own limitations *Celebrates the accomplishments of others *Open to a deep relationship with God Source
  • Peaceful Walk on the River
    Time alone living in my car motivates me to take walks & journal. Before I was too busy. I’m thankful for this time, this time alone with God.
  • Generalized Anxiety Symptoms caused by Trauma
    Generalized anxiety disorder Also called: GAD OverviewSymptomsTreatmentsNewsSpecialists Symptoms Requires a medical diagnosis The condition has symptoms similar to panic disorder, obsessive-compulsive disorder, and other types of anxiety. These symptoms include constant worry, restlessness, and trouble with concentration. Take a self-assessment People may experience: Pain areas: in the back Whole body: fatigue, lightheadedness, or sweating Behavioral: […]
  • God gives Grace to the Humble
    A humble person is a growing person who is quick to read, invite feedback, and ask good questions. A humble person is at peace with themselves and others. Humility embraces contentment and simplicity. It doesn’t need to have the nicest or be the best.
  • PTSD Symptoms
    Symptoms of PTSD Reviewed by Carol DerSarkissian on November 10, 2019 You thought it was behind you. When time passes after a traumatic event, it’s natural to think your mind and body have healed and moved on. But symptoms of posttraumatic stress disorder (PTSD) can pop up months or even years later. Unlike a rash […]
  • Living In My Car
    I moved back home from GA in 2015. I was living with my mom. After losing my daughter on 3-20-17 she wanted me out. She wanted me to get my place. My mind has been so scattered now that I realize I’ve buried two children. I work part-time and sometimes I just feel so defeated […]
  • Therapy Through Crafting
    Been isolating when I’m not at work & crafting. It helps my mind because everything I make is intended to be a gift for someone. It’s hard to keep it for myself. So even in isolation I think I’m still socializing in a way 🤔 🤷🏼‍♀️ I’ve also learned too through the years with God […]
  • This Picture
    The look of pain over child-loss! Silent Grief – Childloss Support https://www.facebook.com/182400808462546/posts/2252355791467027/ ”Today I wrote a note to a bereaved mother. I wanted to say don’t believe all those sympathy cards. The ones that say “time heals” and “God only takes the best” and “may your sorrows be lessened.” You’ll only be disappointed. I wanted […]
  • Who Was I Before My Son Died?
    I asked myself that so many times because I was only 28 when Dustin died. A part of you does when you lose a child. Like part of your soul is gone. Then the struggle to live & losing friends that say they don’t know how to talk to me. The family that doesn’t want […]
A collection of Marco Polo Videos Allison sent to me all made through the last year of her life, 2016-2017
I only have pictures. My video I had of him up to two weeks before his death was lost in my divorce. I always believed Butch hid it from me. I’ve prayed so many times to find it.